The Message

Yesterday I found myself with a dilemma, but a little back story first. While I often receive messages from the spirit world to pass on to others, I've never classed myself as psychic , it's not something I've personally chased or pursued to do, I don't give readings or stand up in a spiritual church and give messages to the congregation,  it just happened from a very young age like it was the most normaliest thing ever and has continued to this day. I remember the first time it happened, I was five years old and there was a passageway between our house and our neighbours, it was summer and I ran through the passageway to go knock for my friend in the next street, as I came out of the passageway I was stopped in my tracks by a voice. I didn't hear it outside of myself, it came from inside my head, it was a mans voice and he told me what my mission in life would be. I wasn't scared, in fact I was so excited, I turned on my heels, ran back down the passageway and burst indoors to tell my mother what had just happened   and what my life's mission  was to be. She listened and nodded and then told me to go back out and play. I was a bit disappointed by her reaction because I knew it was something huge that had just happened. While keeping the details private, I can confirm it did become my life mission, not that I've made a great job of it in terms of what I feel spirit was hoping of me. But I've consoled myself that I've done my best and that hindsight is a wonderful thing.

Over the years, I’ve sometimes found myself receiving messages for friends or family when I’m in their company. At times, those who have passed over will simply come through with a message as  I’m going about everyday life and ask me to pass a message on. In this digital age, it can even happen while I’m chatting with someone on social media. But until yesterday, I don’t recall it ever happening with a complete stranger. 

Now passing on a message is something I'll never get used to, how do you rock up to someone and try to explain a loved one that has died has sent  a message?   I always ask Spirit to try and give me a specific, something that I can pass on so that the recipient is left in no doubt their loved one really is the giver of the message. One of my absolute bugbears is when those  claiming to be  psychic/medium give a message that's so general absolutely anyone could take it. It's a huge responsibility and while  I still feel awkward after all these years, I'm also aware of the huge privilege of being trusted with spirit message and being able to give proof of the afterlife and bring those still here some comfort. 

But yesterday I failed.  I was sat in a cafe with my mother, she felt squashed in because there were people on the table behind us and she wanted to move, so we moved to another table, there was still another couple of people behind her but she was happy as there was more room. The woman sat directly  behind her was an elderly woman. As me and my mother chatted and I  enjoyed my frothy coffee a little girl called out "Mum"  it came on my right side, it was so loud and clear I swung round, there was nothing of course, just an empty chair and the wall, I turned around, again "Muuuum" I looked at the faces of  others in the cafe including my own mother sitting opposite and realised nobody else had heard it .

I was directed to the elderly lady sitting at the table behind us who was chatting to a middle aged man: "Awwwww tell her to try and enjoy it, for me" the little girl said. I knew that she was referring to Christmas. Without writing a novel of explanation, messages can often come like jigsaw pieces that  have to be put together, Suddenly the pieces started fallen into place, I knew the lady had lost a child, a little girl and even though she had grown up in spirit she had come back as a small child so her mother would be able to accept it was her. She then asked me to give the names Jackie and Steven. "Go on, tell her?" 

My relaxing trip for a Coffee suddenly turned into  an anxious guilt ridden drama as I sat there fidgeting, knowing that I should pass the message on, but how ?  How on earth do you approach a complete stranger that's probably also just come in for a coffee with a message of such magnitude. I'm always aware that it could cause somebody a lot of distress, a lot of pain, especially if they don't believe in the after life, spirit etc and I would be devasted if I caused that to happen. There is, I have to be honest, some ego at play too. This is my local cafe, she may well be local too, have family, if it all goes wrong, it could leave a lot of people angry with me including the cafe owners and I have to live here. Even as she got up and put her coat on my anxiety was going through the roof because I knew I should give her this message but at the same time fear of her possible reaction got the better of me. Right up until she left the cafe I was still battling with what i should do. In the end I apologised to the little girl for not feeling it was the right place/time/scenario  to be able to pass on her message  and not cause upset to her mother.  She smiled and nodded and  left and although I know she understood It still hasn't stopped me from feeling guilty since. 

I don't know if this is something new that Spirit have in store for me and I don't know how I will navigate it going forward if they do, but I'm sure I will work it out eventually ? Out of interest what would you have done?    

                                Stay Blessed x  🙏💜